Pain Denial

It’s hard to admit that we love the ones who hurt us the most, those who are hard to get rid of. 

I’ve stood there a minute praying to God to help me push away the bad people from my life, -not to mention the ones I’m deeply in love with- with a sense of hesitation filling my brain, knowing that I won’t be able to do this, knowing that I prayed several times, but every time they leave, my heart shatters a little, and my eye tears a little bit more. Then a day will come when my heart will no longer shatter, when my soul won't ache and my brain will no longer hesitate, and I'll stand there for a minute to thank God for the strength he gave me to push the ones who hurt me the most -the same ones I'm deeply in love with-.