it follows

it follows
when i open my eyes
and find it lurking in the corners of the room,
watching me closely as i shake with dread.
it follows
when i move around,
haunting me wherever i go
and reminding me of what i want to forget.
it follows
when i'm out of focus
so it implants intrusive thoughts in my mind,
leaving them to grow bit by bit and bring me destruction,
then i find myself losing a battle against the maze in my mind.
it follows
when my hands are free
and my mind yearns for some rest,
so i seek comfort in busyness
and not in leisure.
it follows me everywhere
and invades my mind when i least expect it to
how do i get out?