shower thoughts

As you find your feet under the shower, hot water streaming down your body, washing pain all the way down, you feel today didn't change. Today feels like yesterday and every day from a long time ago. It feels like you're baffled in those feelings and memories wherever you go. It feels like nothing you used to know. Yet, you decide not to let go... Those memories are there and you decided to let them kill you so slowl. You still hear your heart howling and beating in your throat, yet you can't cast away your own thoughts. The world is moving on and you're still immobile. It seems you're nowhere, but you're everywhere between your cells. You're still living in the past and you still dream about them. You still think you're the reason they left... You can't get out of your head. You're still overeating and sleeping on the same couch for days, but what you don't know is that you still have a chance to get past them. You don't know if you can ever snap out of this... But trust me, you can. You're still here and God wants you here for a reason... You can change someone's life. Someday you can fall in love and become someone's home. You’ll find a job and go home to a beautiful family of yours. You can finally wake up from that nightmare... Those shower thoughts will be old past.